Life

I have not had much time to journal this week, but I have taken some time to sketch and play with color. It is simply my lifeline and my sanity! But as I was contemplating what to add, this is the thought that came to me. I hope it is inspiring and can help anyone else who may be 'enduring'.

I am in Utah helping my sister who just lost her husband of 36 years. Loss is hard, and especially hard for her. My sister is in a wheelchair. She has had so many challenges in her life, many I cannot even imagine facing, let alone making it through them in tact. But she does.

I remember when she met her husband and when they married. She was ecstatic and scared. I think she didn't feel anyone would want someone that was 'broken'. But he saw her spirit and beauty and he cherished her.

Through all the trials she has faced, she has a stronger testimony and understanding of the gospel than just about anyone I know. She is firm in that.

I remember her getting after me to go to church when I didn't want to, or to pray when I had a problem. On one occasion, I didn't feel my prayers were being heard. She taught me to imagine that I was with my very dearest friend, sitting beside him with my head in his lap and he may be stroking my hair or holding me as I pour out my feelings to him. This advice has never left me. My prayers changed. I felt 'heard'.

At death we stop and honor the one we love and lost. But I wanted to take a moment to honor the one that has lost and is taking the loss with such testimony, and with such a knowledge that they will be together again, and they will both be whole. She faces this with such joy.

Wow.

Life is still very difficult for her. Every day is a struggle. But she has the Lord with her every step of the way. She will be alright.

I am thankful for sisters...

 

Live Creative,

Amy